Something shitty happened just a few days ago as i related on my previous blog post. I was very down then, disappointed, bitter, and all the other words that can relate to that event.
And now, I should say — nothing should be judged unless it is done and final.
Upon the last hour before too late, my mom told me to pack up my things so that I can still make it to the convention. All the mixed negative emotions that I felt instantaneously were gone and seemed to be just my drama. sighs.
I can’t believe what is happening to me now, I am actually leaving a life without my friends, friends that I believed for years that I won’t stand a day without them nor be able to wear a smile if they are hanging out with other people. It’s okay with me if things will continue and we will eventually part ways. As of now I am just wandering around just like a butterfly looking for a better meadow to live in.
I already told my parents that I am gonna attend a convention by this month, and from time to time I see to it that they remember. The convention is to start tomorrow, and to arrive to the venue, participants should already start travelling tomorrow.
I really thought that I ‘ll be able to join. My friends and classmates are discussing about it since last week, preparing stuffs, discussing about the side trips to make on the way back home, companions in the room, games to play, and everything possible in the convention.
I am one of the most active officers in school so I am one of those who are doing the requirments for the convention, informing students regarding everything that they should be informed with for the convention, then now … sighs … I’m not attending.
I just want to cry 
song so old and quite a favorite of mine, yet i am not really aware of the real meaning. i developed this meaning in my mind and thought of it as the real one, but now as i surf through the web i just found out that the thing that went around my head is false, now the thing that i should be doing so as not to depress myself is to find another song that can replace it.
This house just captivates my soul … i want a house just like this one —- for now, i doubt if i still want one like this the next month.
Source: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Modern-Architecture-Interior-Designs/119722684706750
“Yi’an County (Chinese: 依安縣; pinyin: Yī’ān Xiàn) is an county in the northwest of Heilongjiang province in Northeast China. It is under the jurisdiction of the prefecture-level city of Qiqihar.” * – random wikipedia search result
You’ve been there. One of those gatherings where you don’t know anyone and you only showed up because a friend blackmailed you.
When you wake up
And find me gone tomorrow
Don’t think I meant to hurt you
I just did what we knew I had to do.
And all the time we knew
The time was never right for us
Time to leave this love behind
I could never leave you
Baby if I see you cry
I’ll say good bye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I’ll kiss you softly one last time
And say good-bye
Like I know we must
There’s just no other way
And I couldn’t bear to see your heart break
So I´ll wait till your asleep to say good-bye
Please realize
How hard it is to do this
I’m trying to make it through this
Say good-bye just as gently as I can.
Please try and understand
This time just wasn’t the time for us
We knew I couldn’t stay
But that don’t make it easier to leave you
So while I can find the strength.
I’ll say good bye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I’ll kiss you softly one last time
And say good-bye
Before your arms embrace me
Before your kisses take me
Before your eyes can make me stay
I’ll say good bye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I’ll kiss you softly one last time
And say good-bye
Like I know we must
I´ll wait till you’re asleep
To say good-bye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I´ll kiss you softly one last time
And say good-bye
Like I know we must
There’s just no other way
And I couldn’t bear to see your heart break
So I´ll wait till your asleep to say good-bye
When you wake up
And find me gone tomorrow
Don’t think I meant to hurt you
Good bye
